Have you ever woken up from a dream that you cant remember anything about?  You know you had a dream, something happened in that dream, and the fact that you cant remember it just bothers the daylight out of you?

This morning, I got up feeling extremely sad.  So sad that I didn’t want to get out of bed.  Shawn was already up and about, on FB, and waiting for the water to boil to make us our morning cuppa.  I should have been getting dressed to go to church, but I just couldn’t get past this nagging depressing emotional state of mind.  Gosh – cant believe I can be such an emo!  But seriously, something happened in that dreamworld of mine and waking up feeling so tired and sad, well it just overwhelmed me.

Come to think of it, oh gawd, is the aunty coming back for her monthly visits again?    

So I googled “feeling sad after a dream” and the theories that came out from that?  Well, here’s a gist:

1. It could mean that you’re really sad and depressed about something. 
   My reaction:  Hmm…really?
2. It could mean that you have some kind of hidden emotions about things.
   My reaction:  It’s the weekend and its usually spent housecleaning.  Maybe I’m upset that I don’t have a helper to escape from this dreading chore.
3. It could mean that you are clinically depressed. 
   My reaction:  Oh my gosh!  Clinically depressed???  I can imagine it all now:  me in a psycho ward, dressed all in white with my arms strapped around my body.  And a nurse comes up to me with a needle in her hand and then I’m falling into a really deep sleep…..
4. It can be linked to unfulfilled feelings.
   My reaction:  I have plenty of those.  A scrapbooking project that never got started, piano lessons that I dropped out from last year because I couldn’t find time to practice, and the list goes on.  So what’s new?
5. You might be pregnant and the association of sadness could be from a previous miscarriage.
   My reaction:  ?!@$%%@
6. You had a recent split-up.
   My reaction:  <blank>

And the best theory of all:

1. To dream that you are sad actually foretells a happy turn of events. It is a positive dream that means good things are going to happen to you in the near future.

I cant complain about what I have now, how my life is currently, but if good things are going to happen soon, I cant wait!  Bring it on!

I’d like to own a pet someday – maybe a dog.  I don’t mind a teacup Chihuahua or the cute Shih Tzu or even a blue-eyed husky or a dalmation.  Unfortunately, I don’t have a yard for the dog to run around in so that wouldn’t be fair. 

We used to own a tank full of guppies, tetras, cichlids and other species but when our tank caught fire one early morning, we decided to put the tank away for good.  You wont believe how such a simple electrical fire could cause so much damage!

I hate birds, in fact, I’m terrified of birds so there’ll be no cages hanging in our house, that’s for sure!  And with a sister who owns 10 cats, and a neighbor who’s cat is forever on the prowl, there’ll be no cats in my house either.  Cats are so temperamental, not as loyal as the dog and has killer instincts no matter how long its been domesticated.  Throughout my 2.5 years in Senja Link, I’ve been ‘welcomed’ three times with a sacrificial offering.  The first time, it was a dead monitor lizard right at my doorstep.  The second time was a dead bird, actually, just its feathers all over my door mat and the third incident topped it all off.  It was a bird again, but this time, with the wing still intact and a leg.  I was so scared to leave the house – just in case the wing started flapping and the one leg started twitching – I would have dropped dead instantly!  I even tried waking up Shawn but as usual, nothing will budge him out of bed unless it is 9am in the morning.  So I left the house unlocked!  When I returned from work, the feathers were still there and I pleaded Shawn to help get rid of the feathers/leg/wing and all.  He did, but I’ve never been the same ever since.  Every morning, I have this fear of opening the door and I look through the peephole first to make sure there isn’t another dead bird on my doorstep. 

One day, I told my colleagues about it and the next day, ZN gave me this (see below pic).  It’s a black cat that scares away other cats from coming close and hallelujah!  I haven’t had any unexpected visitors ever since.  This cat is definitely going to be with us for a very long time.  And the best thing, this cat is maintenance free! J

looking back at 2009, i cant believe the year has come to an end.  here’s recalling back what the year was like…

Jan:  welcomed 2009 at my parent’s new home in tamparuli with my in-laws.  we were the first to ever stay over in this house (shawn, his parents, and myself), so it was still pretty much bare with only the necessaties available.  nonetheless, we had a wonderful time with close friends and family.  there was an awesome spread of indian dishes, sabahan dishes and bbq and the kids had fun with the door gifts we handed out.  at the stroke of midnight, we distributed party packs consisting of party poppers, clappers, whistles, and the works and celebrated the passing of another wonderful year as well as welcoming the new year ahead. also visited penang during chinese new year period - after 9 years!

 
“BBQ”   
 
“Penang”

Feb:  after years of trying to persuade shawn to take up dancing, he finally gave in.  unfortunately, it only lasted 2 sessions.  fortunately, we did learn something from those 2 sessions so should somebody drag me down to the dance floor, i can still make some impressive moves

Mar:  the most important month of the year - shawn’s birthday!  i will usually take a half day off from work to treat shawn out for a nice lunch.  but for the morning part of the day, this year, i made shawn work for his gift!  i sent him out for a ‘treasure hunt’ and had clues hidden all over the house which eventually led him to my gift:  a flight simulator at the singapore flyer.

“Flight simulator”

Apr:  the busiest month of the year where we have 2 shows back to back:  asia dive expo and boat asia.  this year, both shows were combined due to the recessionary period but overall, we managed with still an 18% growth at the boat asia show.

“Bellydancing:  one of the many shows held during Boat Asia 2009″

May was still a busy month at work as we still had to wrap up with post show activities.  at least, i could finally breath a sigh of relief that the show is finally over.  now to start planning for our darwin trip!

June:  our wedding anniversaries are usually celebrated outside of singapore and this year, it was caravaning or camper vanning at darwin. 

“our campervan:  came complete with a bathroom/shower, kitchen, bed, cabinets, a/c, fridge - the works!”

July - August:  TMX moved office to the funky Arab Street district.  so betwen June to July, it was still yet a busy period for me having to coordinate the setting up of the new office as well as packing and preparing the handover of the suntec office.  business-wise, it was a downtime period for us so a half-month unpaid leave arrangement was worked out for all staff during this time.

“Arab Street District taken from http://www.mongabay.com”

Sept:  balik kg!  for once, i got to attend the SASS Alumni Homecoming Weekend at tamparuli.  it was fun catching up with old school friends.  shawn also dropped by for a surprise visit during that weekend.  i totally didnt see it coming and one late thursday night, choco comes home with…. SHAWN!  it was a really nice surprise having him unexpectedly then.

photo courtesy of lola bingku from “SASS-ians on Facebook”

Oct:  i can never forget this month.  i was down with bronchitis and kidney stones at the same time and til today, i am still coughing!  i was put on an inhaler to clear the air-ways so i dont wake up in the middle of the night gasping for air. 

Nov:  another important month of the year - my birthday!  this year, i told shawn i dont want any surprise parties or gifts and to just take me shopping for a branded handbag and a nice pair of stilletos - sounds superficial?  i dont care :D  November was also the launch of my mother-in-law’s book:  Family Chronicles:  recollections of the past, remembrance for the future.  proud to be a part of the ‘technical team’ helping out in the layout and design of the book.

Dec:  celebrated marsha’s surprise birthday at her home in KL with the entire family flown down as well.  she totally didnt expect having all of us there at the same time and it was great being together again.  xmas was again in kl and then immediately after, we flew to jakarta to bring in the new year.  did major eating and shopping there - so much so that i cant believe i’m saying this, but i dont think i can walk into a mall and do anymore shopping or at least for a very long time.  fed up already!

i hope 2009 was a memorable year for all.  happy new year and may 2010 be a joyous and prosperous one for all!

3 months since my last entry… hmm… my website is SO not going to be renewed this November, unless it comes out from my own pocket. Haha…

I’ve been on mc the past 3 days. And the past 3 days, all I did was sleep, thanks to the cough mixture. But don’t worry, it wasn’t h1n1 or anything serious – just the common flu with the common body aches and the common chills and fevers that comes so commonly with the virus. I’m better now and its back to work tomorrow, the last day of the week. Yay! And it’s a YAY because tomorrow’s the last day of the week, not because I miss going to work.

In between getting knocked out from the cough mixture, I’ve been catching up on the Korean romantic comedy “The Man in the Vineyard”. When I was home in Sabah earlier this month (Sept), the tv was constantly on channel 333 (if I’m not mistaken). Mom and dad are so hooked on Korean dramas, to the point that they can excuse themselves from a committee meeting just to head back home to watch a particular drama. I find that really cute that despite their age, they can still act like teenagers at times. So back to the Korean drama. I managed to catch up from the last scene and finished watching to the last episode. Now I have post-korean drama blues.

Hey – notice that everything in this blog is about the number 3? I better queue up and buy a lottery ticket tomorrow. Who knows I might be able to win 3million dollars.

just checked the weather forecast in darwin (click image for larger view).  and you call it winter there?  looks like i’m gonna need lots and lots of sunblock!

for now, i need to figure out what to pack.  shawn & i both have backpacks we’re gonna carry around so there’s very limited items i can stuff in.  for sure i’m gonna have to ditch the hair iron, the blow dryer, my favourite espirit handbag and the new charles & keith pumps i’ve been so dying to wear since i bought them 2 weeks ago and instead, pack as if i’m contesting for the reality show “survivor”.  i’ll definitely have to manage bad hair-days so i guess i can sneak in a scarf.  but what if i want to visit one of darwin’s casinos?  i cant be wearing flip-flops or my new-balance sports shoes! aiyoh… looks like one bag is not gonna be enuf for me….